Long Day

Ugh. Today Was sooo long. i woke up at 7 am to go running with my new shoes. went to go get my paints. painted my 3 giant pieces of wood which turned out awesome. had to babysit. made a video. hurt my knees. got like a million bug bites, and to top things off i have to watch a baby for the night -.-' UGH. but hey i get money :3!!!! YEY!. nothing else is really new... uhhhmmmm been jumping alot. OH I'm getting a mic so that i can like be heard in the videos! yey. G.'s coming back form W. Soon so that's good ^_^ get to spend time with him :3 well i have to go make sure the small ones haven't gone and dun killed themselves!

Much Toxin,
G.S.

ni days later.

Ni means two for all those non-Japanese speakers out there. Well look where i am now. i got new shooooes :3! there not like snazzy or anything (their for track tryouts) I'm not like super passionate or anything about track but think of it this way, i can outrun the fuzz if i ever get into a jam. (lol) I'm still trying to get the 'rents to side with me on my hair thing, i wont tell ya bout it so it ll be a surprise for u guys :p because my life is just one big sitcom. soooo anyways. today i also get my paints for my mural so ill post some pics asap once i finish those :3 its gunna look sooo fine ;3 well i just went running and i am SO tiered! like I'm abut to pass out tiered not like I'm-not-having-a-good-time-so-ill-just-sleep. well that's it for today ^_^

Much Toxin,
G.S.

Wow......

I am so Unstable today. I think I've cried like 40 times for 5 seconds each but no-one has noticed. I Think deep down i try to be sad and put myself in bad situations. Maybe its because i hate my step mother. Maybe its because i wish i hadn't broken up with M.. Nut its probably because deep down i love being the helpless one. or because i love the attention. all i know is that i have a nice sharp razor in a box and tomorrow i go and throw it in the bottom of the river. I'm done with that life. From now I'm i will do what i want and when i want. i am SO SICK of being censored. I'm sick of letting my step mom decide every damn thing that happens in my house. yes it not her house its my dads house and shes so fucking lucky he doesn't realize that shes just a manipulative jerk. but i can live with it. i mean i don't wanna fuck up their relationship. only 3 More years right? ill just stick it out in my room like i used to do when i was younger. oh well.

Much Toxin,
G.S.

FIrst post. Woo.....

Well.... I said I would do it so here we go. Many of you know me as gypsy and others of you are just here for kicks. But this is my vent if you don't like it go jerk off to some porn. I don't care. So here's the story so far guys. I'm 15 and living in a bullshit household. I hate my stepmother and pretty much everyone in my family save a few. So there ya go. Ill be posting when something exiting happens or my creepy dreams or whatever I want really. Oh here's something fun. Last night I had a totally wearied dream about my ex-bf. And lordie behold I get a text from him today telling me to meet him at the trails tomorrow. Well see how this plays out. Hes one of the sweetest guys ever so I'm not worries. But I wish he would just forget me already. I mean hes a little older and I don't know, amazing but I just cant see us in a lasting relationship ya-know? Anyone else have these issues? Oh well that's it for now. Ill probably post something later because ill be pissed about something stupid like that.

Much Toxin,
G.S.